Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Can I get a Do-over, Please?
There are a ton of parenting moves that weren't the smartest on my part. Times I would take back and re-do if I could. Times when I didn't listen as well as I should, or say the right thing, or react in the best way. It's human nature to critique my parenting choices... was that really a good thing or not? But today the day I would choose would be this one. It was clearly the day I went to registration and heard over and over... "why would you wait? we have pre- 1st grade". If I had just followed my gut and kept Kasey home this year... None of my previous post would be an issue. When it all comes down to it I feel sad, and guilty... because had I just went with my gut, Kasey would have stayed home this last year. I wouldn't of missed out on a whole school year with her. But instead I sent her to school... and for what, a wasted year, to be right back where I was last year at this time. Today as she got ready for school, she got a little sidetracked and started playing... how easy it would of been for me to just let her play, to stay here with me, to do her work on her own time. Then we got to school... and she clung to me, and said, "I just want my mom!" It was worse than the first day, because unlike the first day I honestly couldn't think of one reason for her to be there. It breaks my heart, because here I am having to make this huge decision for her, and knowing that if I make the wrong decision again it could continue to affect her entire life.