My eldest child and I got into a conversation last night about making friends... I really don't think I'm the authority on making friends, although I did my best to tell him to get out there..be yourself.. don't be afraid to talk to people.... blah blah blah. I wish him the best in his venture to make new friends I really do.... I'm pretty sure that in a few weeks he'll be hanging out with someone and hopefully it will be the right kind of crowd. But really in all of this who am I joking. You know who I've talked to this week besides my own family(except for one phone call to a sister, but that would be family)... NO ONE, except for the cashier at the short stop (because according to Darcey they have way better ice than the circle K, and I'm pretty sure she was right.) It's a scary world out there for stay at home moms, with no hobbies.... SCARY! How did I do this before. How did I make friends? Am I even capable of making new friends?
Then and totally different subject, but similar, what do I do all day? I mean honestly I stay busy enough picking up after EVERYONE else, and making meals, and driving to 3 different schools 2 times a day... but there has got to be more to life than this. I've gone months and months with out having a free moment, and now that I have one, I have no idea what to do with it. I tried last week... I drew a picture... a took some pictures... I wrote in a journal... did some yoga... but none of it seemed very satisfying. I need a worthwhile hobby or something that makes me feel like I'm alive again, and less lonely (no offense to Kasey she's a wonderful companion, but you know she is four... and the conversation is usually one sided... she's usually telling me what to do.) So here I am in the crazy place... not sure what to do with myself... and having no friends. Pity party for one~