They put my Grandma in hospice this week.  It hurts my heart.  Partly because I love my grandma and partly because I'm quite finished loosing people I love.  Within the last 2 years I've lost my Mom, My other Grandma, and one of my Aunts.  I have held up fairly well through all of this.  I miss them all very much.  There isn't a day that I don't miss my Mom.  I think about her all the time.
And now this, waiting for another one of those calls, letting me know another family member has left us.  I'm tired of grieving, I'm tired of saying goodbye.  Loss is hard, and I feel like I've been caught in an avalanche of loss.