I've been trying, I really have. My birthday came and went this week. I will admit it was a hard day, that I'd like to forget about. It wasn't bad because I don't like getting older. I am fine with the big 38! It was hard because no matter how many people messaged me, texted me, called me for my birthday, it never made up for that 1 phone call I wouldn't be getting this year. It's still hard to admit to myself that she is gone.
So glad to be done with that day. I know there will be more days like that. But I am trying to challenge myself to look for the happiness.
Here are some things I'm happy for right now:
Fall is in the air, I love Fall
I have truly some of the most amazing kids. Wyatt is home, and is working at the plant as a laborer for an outage. Ty is doing AWESOME at football this year, its been such a nice distraction to watch him play. Kynzie is GREAT at Volleyball, also a welcome distraction. And Kasey is growing into such a sweet girl that made me a lovely card for my Birthday.
I have a great running partner who keeps me positive and motivated.
My husband is by far the most understanding and caring person I could of ever hoped to have in my life. Through all of this he has been my strength.
A well insulated house. While others have said they've had to stoke their fireplaces or turn on their heaters this last week, I've been comfortable all week with a t-shirt on. Hooray for my house.
So there's some happy... Hopefully more to come!