Monday, November 1, 2010

Usually when I least expect it, something happens that really makes me question everything I ever knew. The thing I question most is the fact that I really have tried to be a good mom. I know I've made mistakes. But for the most part I love my kids, I support them, and I have fun with them. But for the last 7 months or so I've been watching one of my children make mistake after mistake, and I've really began to think I must have really screwed up somewhere. I have tried to rationalize with myself that some people are just born with different personalities, but I can't help but fall back into thinking "where did I go wrong?" "what could I have done differently?" It honestly breaks my heart that "said" child seems to be in self destruct mode, and I have no control over what happens next. I just wish that something will click inside of him and he will know what a great person he is, and that he is loved no matter what, and he doesn't need to do all of this crap. I'm at a total loss on this one.


Mama Echo said...

Don't really know what to say except I think you are a wonderful mom.
{{ hugs }}

leaner said...

I don't know what exactly you are going through, but wanted to say this,
I hope to remember this advice when I am a parent of teens, but do you remember being one? I know I was awful, and I nearly self-destructed on a regular basis. My parents were great, but at that age I knew better than them.
The only thing you can really do at this point is love him, and pray for him. If he really is a good kid, in the end of it all, he'll be back and so much stronger.

Pen-nut said...

Love ya Tiff!!! Hang in there, you're doing all that you can at the moment.