Somedays I drown in self pity. For no particular reason... maybe hormones or a bit of depression. Nothing really sets it off, maybe a bad dream or a sudden memory. Just suddenly I feel like the air is a bit heavier, it's harder to be motivated to do the things that I know need done, even the small task of grocery shopping seems exhausting. I want to feel happy, and successful. I want to take pride in the things I do. But some days it just seems very very hard to find myself. I was reminded that today is terrific tuesday.... sometimes even tuesdays don't seem all that terrific.